I'm the bad guy...

So, today was such an interesting day.   I guess it all started out yesterday.  Last night I went to a bbq with a few of my friends and that one girl was there.  The one that I have always been talking about.  And I honestly couldn't get my mind off of her.  So I went over to her house and well, we watched a movie and well, kissed.  Which was just the start of how I became the bad guy today.  While this was happening her parents come in and she gets super embarrassed.  So we go and walk and talk.  And we came to the conclusion, well, I feel as though I came to the conclusion, that we needed to end this relationship.  And she agreed.  And so I break a girl's heart and I feel horrible, but I also feel like it needed to be done.  My mind and my heart are arguing so much right now.  Then I go to another bbq and a girl there has been talking to me and we watched a movie a couple o days ago, and I mean she invited me over to her place and she is like 5 years older then I am.  So her inviting me over was a little weird, but I was like whatever.  So, I go and we watch a movie and talk.  Well I have found out that anything that I say is very offensive.   So we were talking today, and she wanted to hang out again.  And she said that I should give her a massage.  Well I voiced my opinion that that is really kinda weird, so she canceled our "hang out", and hasn't responded to me since.  So I became a bad guy twice today.  So over all I wish with all my heart that I was back on my mission.  I didn't have to worry about drama like this.  So does that make me a horrible person?  I kinda think it does.  Yea, so I am just going to stop talking in general.  If I say nothing, could I offend someone that way too?  I want to get out of here.  Or just change everything that I want, and get a job, a car, a phone, and a girl.  But nope.  I start work tomorrow, don't have a phone yet, nor a car and I pretty much ruined my chances at a girl.  Wow, can you say pathetic?  Yea... Well, hopefully things pick up...

I'm Back?

I am not to sure if anyone is following... but I am home from my mission.  I went to Riverside, CA for two whole years.  Worth it?  I think so.  I have been home now for roughly 5 days.  And I don't know what I am doing.  I miss my mission so much.  I feel like I am doing literally nothing.  I don't like it.  Well, good news is that I got a job already.  The same position with the same job that I had right when I left home.  So that is good.  I am also going to start my own company here fairly soon.  If you have any ideas what to call my company, that would be much appreciated.  But... I don't know what to say.  I went to see the Avengers movie with that girl that I wrote about roughly two years ago.  It was really nice.  Though I don't know if holding hands and all that was the best idea in the world.  But whatever.  Nothing in this world is unfix-able.  So... Well... Time so say so long and farewell.

Last post!!!

Well, I am officially a missionary. So I honestly don't know if I should actually be writing this or not. But what the hey. Well I don't have much to say then...

The church is true and the book is blue.

For all of you followers, my missionary email is...

john.reimann@myldsmail.net

Bye, see you all in two years. Love you!!!!!

Please do not share this email with other people, just you guys!!! Please and thank you!!!

2 Days

So I have two days left, and Saturday will be my last post. So I guess that I should get all I want in with this one and the next.

I am happy that I am going on a mission. I get to get away from all of this stupid drama and lose myself in the work. Though, the hardest part for me right now will be to not give hugs. I LOVE HUGS!!!! And I have heard ever since my freshman year of high school, that I give really good hugs. I don't know how I do it, I guess I just do. I have my thoughts on why people like my hugs, so what the heck I will tell you. My thought is that my hugs are genuine. I just don't through hugs, I give hugs. The way I hug is I put my arms around the girl and hold them tight to me. Maybe a little squeeze. But I want to say the words, I love you, through my hugs. I hope that is what they get when they get my hugs. But some people are just awkward to hug. So how am I supposed to hug them if they really don't want the hug to begin with. The answer is to make the hug just as awkward back!!!! No, but that is what I would want to say. I am going to miss a whole lot of people here in Colorado. Especially YOU, yes you, the person reading right now. I will miss you. But most of my friends right now, are actually really older then I. So, when I get back, they will be in a new part of their life probably, and then they will have no time for me. Well, I guess that is what life is all about. Leaving what you love to do something that is right. Not only is it right, but I have been commanded to. Which makes it even more right.

There is a song that I guess all of this reminds me of. I don't know how to show everyone, because it was my brother's band and it just isn't online anywhere. It is called, end of the year. And I just love the song so much. I might just have to listen to it and write down the lyrics for you all. But the lyrics are only half of it, you need to hear the song too. It is on my i-tunes. So if you know how to put a song there HERE, please tell me how.

So yea, there is one part that I love that has always kind of cheered me up. And that part goes, "I may not have a girl, but soon I might. And if I did I would squeeze her tight."

So really, if you know how to get a song on here please tell me. Ummm... So far I guess that I all I have to say for today. Till tomorrow. Then Off to the mission.

Nothing but Sunshine!!!!

So, today and yesterday have been really good for me. I don't know all of the reasons why, BUT I sure do know some of the reasons why.

Yesterday, I went to the temple with my brother. First time there not going through for me. And I could swear that I could see myself going through the temple again but with my wife. Now I didn't see a face or anything, but it gives me so much hope for the future you know. My brother being here too, really has been fun, no matter how much he bugs me, I love him to death. And also, late last night, I found out that this really cute girl likes/liked me. TOO COOL. kind of stinks that I find that out NOW, but it is always nice to know that I am liked.

And today I worked on my room for a while and I may say that it is coming together quite well. And tonight I went to a movie with my good friends, I was sitting in between two of them, if you know what I am talking about. (wink wink) Ha ha ha ha ha ha. And I had a blast. Movie was pretty good, but it needs a more original story line then: Guy no one likes, does something that seems wrong to everyone else, he turns out to be right, everyone loves him. I have seen too many of those movies. But that would have been the only thing that I would have changed in the movie, otherwise, How to train your dragon was worth the money. (I got in for free, perks of friends) But over all, this post is all about sunshine and smiles.

The next two years are going to be quite the roller coaster. But John Reimann can take on the world right now, knowing that he IS good enough for someone. Well, everyone, I have no more phone anymore. For the next two days it will be facebook, and after that, letters. Hope you all can write well!!!! Love you all!!!!

Thinking...

SO I have been thinking. Yes I know, "Me? Thinking?" It happens. I am caught between a rock and a hard place right now. And it is all about this stupid blog that I have started. I am scared to show my blog to all of my friends and let them know about me, and more of my ins and outs, but I would love to get some comments about what I write about. Cause the thing is, I LOVE TO KNOW PEOPLE'S OPINIONS ABOUT ME!!!!!!!! Weird, but true. I love to know what they love about me and I almost love to know what they hate about me a little more.

I guess the thought process behind that is I want to get to know myself better through other people's eyes. What bothers them about me, what I do that they really admire, or what do I do that I can do better. That is right I had THREE dos in that last statement. (Smile)

So I guess what I am saying is... If you want to leave a comment, I ask you to do so. And if you want to, tell other people about my blog, cause I sure know that I won't. Ha ha ha ha ha.

So, I still haven't done a whole lot on my talk yet, but I have made some good progress with my room. I am getting there. But I have only a few more days before I really have to be done. THE PRESSURE!!!!! Oh well. Well I hope that all is good with all that read this. Have a nice next two years, and even after my mission, I don't know if I will keep this dumb blog thing up. So, maybe a few more posts then off I go, into the wild blue yonder, flying high into the sun... Yep... OK... It just got a little bit awkward. Till next time.

I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane

Well, no I am not leaving on a jet plane, well just not yet at least. But I have less then ONE week left here in Colorado. AND I HAVEN'T DONE A WHOLE LOT TO PREPARE YET!!!!!!!! I have this 15 minute talk to give and I still need to write it, but the good news is is that I have all the material to write it. So, I think I will be alright there, but I have a whole room to box up and I am not even half way through it. Dang.

So, saying goodbye to my friends has been an interesting thing. Some people are truly going to miss me, and then others I can just tell aren't. But it is okay I guess. There is just so much stuff going on that I don't know where to put my thoughts. They are just going every which way. Some times I just wonder where I will be in people's thoughts for the next two years. Will there be people actually thinking about me? Will I truly be missed? I don't know. I don't know how someone can like me so much without really knowing me. I guess they know things about me.

So, I guess that brings me to my next subject. ME!!!! That is what this whole blog thing is really about. Me.

So, for the many many many people who read this, that is right I am talking to you one person, I would call myself a romantic person. But the thing is, I am only really romantic in my head. I think of ways that I could romance my future lady friend. I think of all the ways I could make her smile and love me. For example. I would take her to a quiet dinner, just her and me, with the candles on the table. We would eat, talk, laugh and eat some more. Afterward we would hear some music in the background, I would ask her to dance. While we are dancing I would be singing softly into her ear as we sway side to side. After the dance, we would go to a park. That is right, a park. She would be on the swing, with me behind pushing her gently. We would talk and laugh. Afterward I would take her home give her a sweet soft kiss and say goodbye. Now if that doesn't get me any brownie points, I don't know what will. But the thing is, I have to be a lot more assured of myself then I am to do a thing like that. Girls when I get to really liking them, I can't think, and I make mistakes and make a total fool of myself. DUMB GIRLS GET ME FEELING LIKE A TOTAL FOOL!!!!!!

But I guess that I don't have to worry about girls for the next two years. Which reminds me. When I was little, I always dreamed that I would be some girl's missionary. Go on my mission, and then I know I would at least get a letter, and maybe a true dear john. That dream will never come true. I have less then one week to get a girlfriend to make that dream a reality. Ain't going to happen. Oh well, it is the way it was supposed to be I guess.

The thing is, I have always liked girls, even when I was in kindergarten. I liked girls. And I still do. So all of you ladies reading this, I'M SINGLE!!! (if you can wait two years)

But I guess the real reason that I started this one blog today is to say how really scared I am. I am not, I guess, scared for the mission, but scared to come back. Where will I be, and all of my friends be? Where will I go for school? Work? Will there actually be a girl out there for me? WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!?!?!?!?!? I don't know. But that is two years away, I shouldn't worry about it.

CALIFORNIA, HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!