Trying to get used to the whole school thing again.

So really this post is about what has been going on these past few days.  I was not totally sure about coming back up here to BYU-Idaho.  I wasn't too sure about my roommates, my classes, my teachers and about how theater would go.  So I got up here, and everything started to go really nicely and fairly smooth.  And I find out that there is a deaf girl in my ward up here.  Weird, because I have felt like the Lord has always been putting opportunities to learn ASL in my path.  And He decides to put it in my path again.  I got super excited.  Also really nervous because the bishop asked me to be an interpreter for her.  Her name is Alexis.  And it also turns out that she is in my FHE group.  So it seems as though it was just meant to be that I am supposed to learn ASL once more.  So of course I am nervous and excited.  So I get up front of the congregation to interpret for Alexis.  And it so happens to be Ward Conference.  So our stake president is speaking with our bishop.  So I am trying to do the best I can with about a weeks worth of practice.  And after the first block the stake president asks me if I can interpret for him so he can meet Alexis.  Well, I do my best again, and he can tell that I don't know a whole lot.  So he basically lets out this sigh like I wasn't good enough.  So he kind of treats me, I am not sure he meant it to come across like it, but he treats me like what I just did was worthless and unacceptable.  Which really kind of upset me, because I basically did the best I could with what I learned that week.  And now he is going to try to find a ASL interpreter, who knows ASL fluently.  So I am confused about if it truly was the Lord's hand in me being here with Alexis, or what.  So I don't know what to think right now.

Also, I went with a friend to his place to watch a movie.  And his girlfriend is also an old friend.  We went to his place ans watched a really good movie called RED.  And while we were watching my two friends were cuddling, and it just brought back memories of when I went to movie nights and everyone had a cuddle buddy except for me.  I really do not like that.  Am I really that much of a loser that I can't get a girlfriend.  I guess that is a little harsh, but I mean why haven't I ever really had a steady girlfriend?  So it just made want a girlfriend that much more.  Though I did not want to get a gf while I was up here, because I really just wanted to focus on my school work.  But now, I just want that best friend who I can just, well, love.  And there goes the sentimental part of me again.

So that is two ways, really in the last two days how I have just felt like I am alone.

But I guess on a good note, I didn't try out for any of the plays up here.  You might be asking yourself why I would not try out for any of the productions.  And it is because I am going to try to work on both of the productions as a technician.  I feel good about this.  I want to learn all about the technical side of things so that one day I will be able to teach it to my students.

And guess what... two seconds ago, I get to chat with a friend of mine from back home on facebook.  And it turns out that she was interested in me, and I told her that the feeling was mutual.  Well kind of sucks that I am in Idaho now.  Right after I write the beginning of this blog, we talked.  Kind of stupid ironic, huh?

Well, that is my life up here so far.  I might update later.  I'll think about it.