Last post!!!

Well, I am officially a missionary. So I honestly don't know if I should actually be writing this or not. But what the hey. Well I don't have much to say then...

The church is true and the book is blue.

For all of you followers, my missionary email is...

john.reimann@myldsmail.net

Bye, see you all in two years. Love you!!!!!

Please do not share this email with other people, just you guys!!! Please and thank you!!!

2 Days

So I have two days left, and Saturday will be my last post. So I guess that I should get all I want in with this one and the next.

I am happy that I am going on a mission. I get to get away from all of this stupid drama and lose myself in the work. Though, the hardest part for me right now will be to not give hugs. I LOVE HUGS!!!! And I have heard ever since my freshman year of high school, that I give really good hugs. I don't know how I do it, I guess I just do. I have my thoughts on why people like my hugs, so what the heck I will tell you. My thought is that my hugs are genuine. I just don't through hugs, I give hugs. The way I hug is I put my arms around the girl and hold them tight to me. Maybe a little squeeze. But I want to say the words, I love you, through my hugs. I hope that is what they get when they get my hugs. But some people are just awkward to hug. So how am I supposed to hug them if they really don't want the hug to begin with. The answer is to make the hug just as awkward back!!!! No, but that is what I would want to say. I am going to miss a whole lot of people here in Colorado. Especially YOU, yes you, the person reading right now. I will miss you. But most of my friends right now, are actually really older then I. So, when I get back, they will be in a new part of their life probably, and then they will have no time for me. Well, I guess that is what life is all about. Leaving what you love to do something that is right. Not only is it right, but I have been commanded to. Which makes it even more right.

There is a song that I guess all of this reminds me of. I don't know how to show everyone, because it was my brother's band and it just isn't online anywhere. It is called, end of the year. And I just love the song so much. I might just have to listen to it and write down the lyrics for you all. But the lyrics are only half of it, you need to hear the song too. It is on my i-tunes. So if you know how to put a song there HERE, please tell me how.

So yea, there is one part that I love that has always kind of cheered me up. And that part goes, "I may not have a girl, but soon I might. And if I did I would squeeze her tight."

So really, if you know how to get a song on here please tell me. Ummm... So far I guess that I all I have to say for today. Till tomorrow. Then Off to the mission.

Nothing but Sunshine!!!!

So, today and yesterday have been really good for me. I don't know all of the reasons why, BUT I sure do know some of the reasons why.

Yesterday, I went to the temple with my brother. First time there not going through for me. And I could swear that I could see myself going through the temple again but with my wife. Now I didn't see a face or anything, but it gives me so much hope for the future you know. My brother being here too, really has been fun, no matter how much he bugs me, I love him to death. And also, late last night, I found out that this really cute girl likes/liked me. TOO COOL. kind of stinks that I find that out NOW, but it is always nice to know that I am liked.

And today I worked on my room for a while and I may say that it is coming together quite well. And tonight I went to a movie with my good friends, I was sitting in between two of them, if you know what I am talking about. (wink wink) Ha ha ha ha ha ha. And I had a blast. Movie was pretty good, but it needs a more original story line then: Guy no one likes, does something that seems wrong to everyone else, he turns out to be right, everyone loves him. I have seen too many of those movies. But that would have been the only thing that I would have changed in the movie, otherwise, How to train your dragon was worth the money. (I got in for free, perks of friends) But over all, this post is all about sunshine and smiles.

The next two years are going to be quite the roller coaster. But John Reimann can take on the world right now, knowing that he IS good enough for someone. Well, everyone, I have no more phone anymore. For the next two days it will be facebook, and after that, letters. Hope you all can write well!!!! Love you all!!!!

Thinking...

SO I have been thinking. Yes I know, "Me? Thinking?" It happens. I am caught between a rock and a hard place right now. And it is all about this stupid blog that I have started. I am scared to show my blog to all of my friends and let them know about me, and more of my ins and outs, but I would love to get some comments about what I write about. Cause the thing is, I LOVE TO KNOW PEOPLE'S OPINIONS ABOUT ME!!!!!!!! Weird, but true. I love to know what they love about me and I almost love to know what they hate about me a little more.

I guess the thought process behind that is I want to get to know myself better through other people's eyes. What bothers them about me, what I do that they really admire, or what do I do that I can do better. That is right I had THREE dos in that last statement. (Smile)

So I guess what I am saying is... If you want to leave a comment, I ask you to do so. And if you want to, tell other people about my blog, cause I sure know that I won't. Ha ha ha ha ha.

So, I still haven't done a whole lot on my talk yet, but I have made some good progress with my room. I am getting there. But I have only a few more days before I really have to be done. THE PRESSURE!!!!! Oh well. Well I hope that all is good with all that read this. Have a nice next two years, and even after my mission, I don't know if I will keep this dumb blog thing up. So, maybe a few more posts then off I go, into the wild blue yonder, flying high into the sun... Yep... OK... It just got a little bit awkward. Till next time.

I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane

Well, no I am not leaving on a jet plane, well just not yet at least. But I have less then ONE week left here in Colorado. AND I HAVEN'T DONE A WHOLE LOT TO PREPARE YET!!!!!!!! I have this 15 minute talk to give and I still need to write it, but the good news is is that I have all the material to write it. So, I think I will be alright there, but I have a whole room to box up and I am not even half way through it. Dang.

So, saying goodbye to my friends has been an interesting thing. Some people are truly going to miss me, and then others I can just tell aren't. But it is okay I guess. There is just so much stuff going on that I don't know where to put my thoughts. They are just going every which way. Some times I just wonder where I will be in people's thoughts for the next two years. Will there be people actually thinking about me? Will I truly be missed? I don't know. I don't know how someone can like me so much without really knowing me. I guess they know things about me.

So, I guess that brings me to my next subject. ME!!!! That is what this whole blog thing is really about. Me.

So, for the many many many people who read this, that is right I am talking to you one person, I would call myself a romantic person. But the thing is, I am only really romantic in my head. I think of ways that I could romance my future lady friend. I think of all the ways I could make her smile and love me. For example. I would take her to a quiet dinner, just her and me, with the candles on the table. We would eat, talk, laugh and eat some more. Afterward we would hear some music in the background, I would ask her to dance. While we are dancing I would be singing softly into her ear as we sway side to side. After the dance, we would go to a park. That is right, a park. She would be on the swing, with me behind pushing her gently. We would talk and laugh. Afterward I would take her home give her a sweet soft kiss and say goodbye. Now if that doesn't get me any brownie points, I don't know what will. But the thing is, I have to be a lot more assured of myself then I am to do a thing like that. Girls when I get to really liking them, I can't think, and I make mistakes and make a total fool of myself. DUMB GIRLS GET ME FEELING LIKE A TOTAL FOOL!!!!!!

But I guess that I don't have to worry about girls for the next two years. Which reminds me. When I was little, I always dreamed that I would be some girl's missionary. Go on my mission, and then I know I would at least get a letter, and maybe a true dear john. That dream will never come true. I have less then one week to get a girlfriend to make that dream a reality. Ain't going to happen. Oh well, it is the way it was supposed to be I guess.

The thing is, I have always liked girls, even when I was in kindergarten. I liked girls. And I still do. So all of you ladies reading this, I'M SINGLE!!! (if you can wait two years)

But I guess the real reason that I started this one blog today is to say how really scared I am. I am not, I guess, scared for the mission, but scared to come back. Where will I be, and all of my friends be? Where will I go for school? Work? Will there actually be a girl out there for me? WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!?!?!?!?!? I don't know. But that is two years away, I shouldn't worry about it.

CALIFORNIA, HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!

Thoughts, again....

So I just got home from a party all for me. I just loved it. I haven't had that many people celebrate something for me like that since I had birthday parties and invited all my friends when I was little. So I got a ton of ties. I love pretty much all of them, but there are a few that I probably won't be able to wear. SORRY!! So I have decided that most of my posts are real downers, that I would..... can you guess? That is right, keep up with what I have been doing and don't change. Ha ha ha ha ha ha.

So, there is this one girl that was there, and I really don't think that she was there for me. One, because I really don't think she likes me. Two, because it seemed as though she needed to work a few things out with someone. This girl I offended a little while ago. I didn't mean to do anything of the kind. I was just hoping that I could peek a little more into her life to see what really made her tick. She got so mad at me, that I don't think that she has totally forgiven me yet. I mean I used to be in this elite group that she wouldn't mind "touching", and now she can hardly even look at me without giving me a look. It kind of hurts you know. I mean, I didn't mean to hurt her at all, not even in the least bit. I would say why I think she took offense to it, but I won't because I really think she is a pretty fun person to be around and I truly love her friendship.

So, I have been hanging around a lot of girls for the past few months, and I have been listening in on their "girl talk." I have been doing it for a few reasons. One, they let me listen. Two, to remind myself why dating is just not going to be for me for a LONG TIME!!!!!! They talk about other guys, while they know that I am there, which really lowers my self esteem. I mean, if you heard someone talk about this good looking person that is a good friend of yours, the first thing that pops into my head is, "So what does that make me?" I guess a whole lot of nothing. Thanks guys, love you too. When I talk to my guy friends, yea we talk about girls, I mean come on. But we usually don't talk about how they look. We usually talk about their personalities and how fun they are. I don't know about other people, but looks aren't everything. Cause when you get to know someone who is ok looking but has a bomb personality, they actually get a lot cuter. Now don't get me wrong, looks are quite the bonus, but they just aren't EVERYTHING. I know that I am not the most well built guy, or has the best body or facial features. But do you know what? I love who I am and if you don't like this, then you are not worth my time.

Yea, so I have found that talking or I guess writing this blog has made things so much easier for me to let things go and just go my own way with my own path. Girls just aren't worth the time and effort right now. And probably not for a long time. Thanks for staying with me all that read this, that is right I am talking to YOU!!! I have a few more things that I could wright, but yea, I might just wait till after my mission. You would have to wait TWO YEARS!!!! THE SUSPENSE!!!!

Superman

So my friend posted a Superman related thing on her blog and honestly it really touched me. She said that she was waiting for her Superman. Which really got me thinking, "Will I become someone's Superman?" I guess that is another reason that I just love Superman. He is one of the most caring Superheroes there are. I would even probably go as far as to say, he is the most Christlike superheroes there are. Another reason I love him. He is just so caring. He wants to be everywhere to help everyone. He is not one to give up when the going gets to hard. He stands up for what he believes and won't take any crap from no one.

So I guess the real point of me liking Superman is because, I want to be a super man. I want to be able to be there for a lady and give her all that she needs and more. I want to lift her up when it gets a little foggy and show her the sunlight that has always been in her life. To give her the love that she deserves. But my fear is that I am just going to become this regular guy that can't be anything more then just a regular joe. I want to be a Superman is someone's eyes. I guess the only thing I can do is be the best me I can be and hope that someone will be able to see a super man.

This doesn't make me too happy.

So, I am leaving on my mission in about 11 days. And I would love to spend all the time I can with my parents. But all they are doing is working, both of them. I am going to be gone for TWO YEARS and they can't spend ONE DAY with me?!?!?! You know what? I don't know if I can take it. I hurts to think that their work is more important then their son. There is nothing that I can do to change that I guess. I feel like my friends are slowly going away too, I wonder how many are actually going to write me. And then what am I going to do when I get back? Where will my friends be? Will I just have to start over from scratch? I don't even want to think about it. I am leaving for two years, and I feel like everyone, except for a few, don't even care. And you know what? SCREW EM!!!!!! No, I don't mean that. I try to be a mean guy but I am just too nice for my own good. I hope they have a great life with out me in them. Peace out world. John Reimann is going to go away and he just doesn't know if he even wants to come back. Have a good life.

Just writing to write.

Now I know that most people, if any, will read this. But I have decided to just start writing. So I am leaving on my mission in about 12 days. And with just that I have a ton on my mind. But the reason I am actually writing is for me to just write what I have wanted to write for a very long time. I don't even know if the words will come out right, or even if they will make sense. But here we go.

I am a tall skinny guy that is the youngest of my family. I have three older brothers and I love them to death. One of my brothers actually just got married. So that gets me to where I want to talk or I guess write about. Now how to begin. Me, being me, I love to love people. I love to get to know them and I love to be there when they need me. Now, with me being this way, I have never had a girlfriend in my entire life. I become the "nice guy." Now if you don't know what the nice guy is or does, he is the one that a girl can come to and just vent. And because he is the one that she vents to, he will become nothing more then just a great friend. This really hurts. Don't get me wrong, I love to listen, but if everyone vents to me, who am I supposed to vent to? Who am I supposed to turn to when I feel like crap or when a girl is being a jerk to me or when I just don't see the point of anything anymore? Where is that person who can give me that hug and comfort that I have been needing my entire life? Sure, there have been a ton of girls that I have liked, but guess what, I have become that nice guy to them and then I become nothing more then a good friend that they can turn to and vent. I want that person to come into my life and see who I truly am. If you think you know me, I laugh in your direction. I feel like I put on a mask every time that I wake up in the morning. I guess that is what makes me such a good actor I guess. No one knows my feeling, no one has seen my downs and my ups. I am just the person that goes into the corner so I don't have to talk to people. I am that guy who will open up if you only ask. But the problem is, no one asks. So I have this huge problem opening up to people, and it gets worse and worse the more I don't show my true feelings.

I am just going on a tangent, but to tell the truth, it feels good to talk or write about it.

Another part of me is all about superheroes. Don't even get me started with them. I could talk for a while. I would have to say that my favorite superhero is Superman. For many reasons. Just a side note: What makes me pretty angry is when I tell people that I like Superman and they almost try to change my mind and convince me that Superman is not really all that cool, or that he is the most unrealistic. ALL SUPERHEROES ARE UNREALISTIC, EVEN BATMAN!!!!! but anyways back to where I was before the side note. The reason I like Superman is that he is a good guy. Period. He will go out of his way to help an old lady across the street, and he is also strong enough to where he can fight evil and come out victorious. He is also the first superhero to wear his mask backwards. His mask is Clark Kent, while his true identity is Superman. Now he is so cool to me because if he chose to be evil, he could be the only supervillain that would be unstoppable. There is this song that really got me hooked, and it is called Superman's song by Crash Test Dummies.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihUIPlLw2ZE

That is the video.

Listen to the lyrics, and if needs be look them up.

But right now I guess that is all I have to say. If you actually read this, well I guess you got to know me a little better. Thanks for taking the time to get to know be a little better