Thoughts, again....

So I just got home from a party all for me. I just loved it. I haven't had that many people celebrate something for me like that since I had birthday parties and invited all my friends when I was little. So I got a ton of ties. I love pretty much all of them, but there are a few that I probably won't be able to wear. SORRY!! So I have decided that most of my posts are real downers, that I would..... can you guess? That is right, keep up with what I have been doing and don't change. Ha ha ha ha ha ha.

So, there is this one girl that was there, and I really don't think that she was there for me. One, because I really don't think she likes me. Two, because it seemed as though she needed to work a few things out with someone. This girl I offended a little while ago. I didn't mean to do anything of the kind. I was just hoping that I could peek a little more into her life to see what really made her tick. She got so mad at me, that I don't think that she has totally forgiven me yet. I mean I used to be in this elite group that she wouldn't mind "touching", and now she can hardly even look at me without giving me a look. It kind of hurts you know. I mean, I didn't mean to hurt her at all, not even in the least bit. I would say why I think she took offense to it, but I won't because I really think she is a pretty fun person to be around and I truly love her friendship.

So, I have been hanging around a lot of girls for the past few months, and I have been listening in on their "girl talk." I have been doing it for a few reasons. One, they let me listen. Two, to remind myself why dating is just not going to be for me for a LONG TIME!!!!!! They talk about other guys, while they know that I am there, which really lowers my self esteem. I mean, if you heard someone talk about this good looking person that is a good friend of yours, the first thing that pops into my head is, "So what does that make me?" I guess a whole lot of nothing. Thanks guys, love you too. When I talk to my guy friends, yea we talk about girls, I mean come on. But we usually don't talk about how they look. We usually talk about their personalities and how fun they are. I don't know about other people, but looks aren't everything. Cause when you get to know someone who is ok looking but has a bomb personality, they actually get a lot cuter. Now don't get me wrong, looks are quite the bonus, but they just aren't EVERYTHING. I know that I am not the most well built guy, or has the best body or facial features. But do you know what? I love who I am and if you don't like this, then you are not worth my time.

Yea, so I have found that talking or I guess writing this blog has made things so much easier for me to let things go and just go my own way with my own path. Girls just aren't worth the time and effort right now. And probably not for a long time. Thanks for staying with me all that read this, that is right I am talking to YOU!!! I have a few more things that I could wright, but yea, I might just wait till after my mission. You would have to wait TWO YEARS!!!! THE SUSPENSE!!!!