Just writing to write.

Now I know that most people, if any, will read this. But I have decided to just start writing. So I am leaving on my mission in about 12 days. And with just that I have a ton on my mind. But the reason I am actually writing is for me to just write what I have wanted to write for a very long time. I don't even know if the words will come out right, or even if they will make sense. But here we go.

I am a tall skinny guy that is the youngest of my family. I have three older brothers and I love them to death. One of my brothers actually just got married. So that gets me to where I want to talk or I guess write about. Now how to begin. Me, being me, I love to love people. I love to get to know them and I love to be there when they need me. Now, with me being this way, I have never had a girlfriend in my entire life. I become the "nice guy." Now if you don't know what the nice guy is or does, he is the one that a girl can come to and just vent. And because he is the one that she vents to, he will become nothing more then just a great friend. This really hurts. Don't get me wrong, I love to listen, but if everyone vents to me, who am I supposed to vent to? Who am I supposed to turn to when I feel like crap or when a girl is being a jerk to me or when I just don't see the point of anything anymore? Where is that person who can give me that hug and comfort that I have been needing my entire life? Sure, there have been a ton of girls that I have liked, but guess what, I have become that nice guy to them and then I become nothing more then a good friend that they can turn to and vent. I want that person to come into my life and see who I truly am. If you think you know me, I laugh in your direction. I feel like I put on a mask every time that I wake up in the morning. I guess that is what makes me such a good actor I guess. No one knows my feeling, no one has seen my downs and my ups. I am just the person that goes into the corner so I don't have to talk to people. I am that guy who will open up if you only ask. But the problem is, no one asks. So I have this huge problem opening up to people, and it gets worse and worse the more I don't show my true feelings.

I am just going on a tangent, but to tell the truth, it feels good to talk or write about it.

Another part of me is all about superheroes. Don't even get me started with them. I could talk for a while. I would have to say that my favorite superhero is Superman. For many reasons. Just a side note: What makes me pretty angry is when I tell people that I like Superman and they almost try to change my mind and convince me that Superman is not really all that cool, or that he is the most unrealistic. ALL SUPERHEROES ARE UNREALISTIC, EVEN BATMAN!!!!! but anyways back to where I was before the side note. The reason I like Superman is that he is a good guy. Period. He will go out of his way to help an old lady across the street, and he is also strong enough to where he can fight evil and come out victorious. He is also the first superhero to wear his mask backwards. His mask is Clark Kent, while his true identity is Superman. Now he is so cool to me because if he chose to be evil, he could be the only supervillain that would be unstoppable. There is this song that really got me hooked, and it is called Superman's song by Crash Test Dummies.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihUIPlLw2ZE

That is the video.

Listen to the lyrics, and if needs be look them up.

But right now I guess that is all I have to say. If you actually read this, well I guess you got to know me a little better. Thanks for taking the time to get to know be a little better