I just gotta start...

So I have been thinking a lot.  The friendship that I just screwed up just became super awkward now.  Total miscommunication.  She thinks that I became super defensive about her opinion.  When I really didn't.  I posted a question on this blog and it was more of a thought provoking question or a rhetorical question.  She decided to tell me her side of the answer and all I said was,"I am going to politely disagree. thank you for your opinion."  And then I got a faceful of I am an "asshole".  If I take a step back, this would have to be something that has built up over time.  I couldn't see how something like that could come across so rude and inconsiderate.  So I must have been doing things before then, or even I became the person she decided to dump everything on.  Both are a possibility. 

Well, before this all happened, I have been thinking that I am going to start thinking about number one.  I haven't done that is such a long time.  I have always put other people in front of me.  And many times it has bit me in the butt.  There is a quote I found,"Sometimes the person who tries to keep everyone happy is the most lonely person."  Well that is EXACTLY how I am feeling.  So I am going to do things that I have been wanting to do.  Though some of those things would be better with friends.  Right now, I really don't have any.  Screw me over.  I hate pity parties.  And it seems as though this whole blog as been that.  Well, oh well.  It is now, seeming to me, the only way to vent for me.  I just don't want to be lonely anymore.  No girl, hardly a job, barely any friends (if any), and nothing to do.  Well, I guess I just have to go though hell to understand and appreciate heaven.  I am crossing my fingers that things will be looking up here soon. 

Things have to be looking up here soon... Right?

So, I am guessing that things need to start going right after a ton of things are just going wrong.  Am I wrong with thinking that?  First, apparently I screwed up one of my most prized friendships.  Second, I interviewed for a second job, thought I got the job... got an email today and well... I didn't.  I had to miss FHE today because of work, to only work 2 1/2 hours, again because of my thumb.  My social life is going downhill.  And I really really really don't want to be living with my folks anymore.  Not that I don't love them, but I am living with two old people.  It can be frustrating sometimes.  I am stuck here at home with people that I really can't do things with.  What do I do?  Well I guess I could just arrange something to do with all my friends.  You know what... I will do that.  Wednesday night.  October 17th.  After hours.  JUNGLE QUEST!!!!  I bet you if I just ask to do it, that I will be able to.  I wonder if anyone would come...  Oh well.  I will check.   I am just not too sure with a whole lot right now.  I am just hoping that things turn around here sooner then later.  Well... yep...