I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane

Well, no I am not leaving on a jet plane, well just not yet at least. But I have less then ONE week left here in Colorado. AND I HAVEN'T DONE A WHOLE LOT TO PREPARE YET!!!!!!!! I have this 15 minute talk to give and I still need to write it, but the good news is is that I have all the material to write it. So, I think I will be alright there, but I have a whole room to box up and I am not even half way through it. Dang.

So, saying goodbye to my friends has been an interesting thing. Some people are truly going to miss me, and then others I can just tell aren't. But it is okay I guess. There is just so much stuff going on that I don't know where to put my thoughts. They are just going every which way. Some times I just wonder where I will be in people's thoughts for the next two years. Will there be people actually thinking about me? Will I truly be missed? I don't know. I don't know how someone can like me so much without really knowing me. I guess they know things about me.

So, I guess that brings me to my next subject. ME!!!! That is what this whole blog thing is really about. Me.

So, for the many many many people who read this, that is right I am talking to you one person, I would call myself a romantic person. But the thing is, I am only really romantic in my head. I think of ways that I could romance my future lady friend. I think of all the ways I could make her smile and love me. For example. I would take her to a quiet dinner, just her and me, with the candles on the table. We would eat, talk, laugh and eat some more. Afterward we would hear some music in the background, I would ask her to dance. While we are dancing I would be singing softly into her ear as we sway side to side. After the dance, we would go to a park. That is right, a park. She would be on the swing, with me behind pushing her gently. We would talk and laugh. Afterward I would take her home give her a sweet soft kiss and say goodbye. Now if that doesn't get me any brownie points, I don't know what will. But the thing is, I have to be a lot more assured of myself then I am to do a thing like that. Girls when I get to really liking them, I can't think, and I make mistakes and make a total fool of myself. DUMB GIRLS GET ME FEELING LIKE A TOTAL FOOL!!!!!!

But I guess that I don't have to worry about girls for the next two years. Which reminds me. When I was little, I always dreamed that I would be some girl's missionary. Go on my mission, and then I know I would at least get a letter, and maybe a true dear john. That dream will never come true. I have less then one week to get a girlfriend to make that dream a reality. Ain't going to happen. Oh well, it is the way it was supposed to be I guess.

The thing is, I have always liked girls, even when I was in kindergarten. I liked girls. And I still do. So all of you ladies reading this, I'M SINGLE!!! (if you can wait two years)

But I guess the real reason that I started this one blog today is to say how really scared I am. I am not, I guess, scared for the mission, but scared to come back. Where will I be, and all of my friends be? Where will I go for school? Work? Will there actually be a girl out there for me? WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!?!?!?!?!? I don't know. But that is two years away, I shouldn't worry about it.

CALIFORNIA, HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!