Where do I belong?

Have you ever felt like you just don't belong really anywhere you are?  Yea... So earlier I talked about they type of group that I would like to hang out with.  Well... I found them.  I really really did.  And guess what... I still felt awkward around them.  I find myself going to this things and thinking,"Why am I here?"  Talk about being alone.  Is it me?  I just don't know.  I need a new life in general.  But then again, who says that it won't end up being the same?  Is this the life I am led to live?  Where I really just don't fit in anywhere I go?  I did go on a date about 2 weeks ago.  I took this girl to see the newest Batman movie.  Wow, what I night!!  She is a total superhero person like me and we get along really well.  Though, the only real problem is that she is a non-member and doesn't live the same values that I do.  But we just talked and talked and talked.  Why can't there be a LDS girl out there like that for me?  Well, to be honest, I have found a couple.  But I end up going into the friend zone.  What am I supposed to do?  I have found out that all the girls that I end up liking, not all but you know, are non-members, I get friend zoned, or find out that we have nothing really in common. 

But I guess what I am getting to is... Do I still hang out with all these groups even though I just don't feel like I belong there, or do I just stop.  Knowing who I am, I will still be going to these groups.  But I guess I am way more of a one on one type of person.  I feel better and and more comfortable and confident. 

Oh right, that girl, the superhero one, I am going to watch another movie with her on Friday.  And this Sunday is missionary Sunday, and I am speaking.  I am going to invite her.  Oh boy, scary.  But she needs it and I would love to see her there to support me.  May not happen, but at least I will try.  The worst she can do is say no.  Or say yes and still not come.  But, I can always ask.

Anyways... Just me having my pity party again.  I think that is all this is really good for. 

Oh, also.  My family is going to just sell the car that we just got.  We are fixing it up tomorrow, and then selling it.  So I can have enough money for school.  Cause I am not getting enough hours at work, especially now that I hurt my thumb.  Oh well, life sucks sometimes. 

So, in other words, I need out.